Sometimes we are afraid of what we cannot see. I am on a journey right now of shining light within myself especially in those darker places that I might not understand. For me, it isn’t about going to the root because I don’t need to pin point the moment, but instead realize the plant that has grown and accepting it in my life. I'd like to use the plant to help me understand myself.
The dark isn’t bad but it can be confusing. We’ve all had an experience of thinking something is one thing and then when we get closer to it, we realize it’s something completely different. But for those few moments, our heart beat fast. We don’t know what it is. It’s okay to be afraid of what we don’t know or what we cannot see. Use your spiritual practice to turn the light on. Be brave.
Sometimes we’ll get disconnected. Disconnected from our path or what is important to us. We’ll feel that we lost our way or that we are confused how to stay on the path. It’s normal. I believe one of the hardest times in my life was searching for a purpose. A reason. When I found one or when it found me, the work began. I had an outlet and a path that I could rely on. But what happens when we lose motivation? When we have our path but it’s not lit up and we get disconnected?
I could imagine anyone feeling this way. Whether you are a student, a parent, a president of a company or a spouse. What happens when the fire leaves and we are left with the hot amber? Can we rekindle the flame? Can we find the spark and light the flame?
OF COURSE we can. I am telling myself to NEVER doubt the flame. It’s always within me even if I can’t see it. It’s always lighting my path, even when my eyes are closed.
Sometimes we have to forgive. Almost 20 years ago I met a wonderful woman named Erin who read my energy. She’s a spiritual alchemist and a Magdalene heart. If you know of Mary Magdalene, you know. She told me I needed to forgive. I didn’t take her advice until many years later. Sometimes we aren’t ready but when we are, wow. Here is a beautiful Hawaiian Prayer for Forgiveness called “Ho’oponopono” (pronounced HO-oh-Po-no-Po-no)
“I’m sorry, Please forgive me, Thank you, I love you.”
Sometimes that biggest commitment you’ll make is to yourself. Commit to being the best version of yourself that you feel in your heart. Committing to yourself is a BOLD move. We all say we want to do it but how many times do we put our needs on the back burner for others? Call it commitments, obligations, call it whatever makes you feel better.
Sometimes you have to commit to your growth. Get real with what is holding you back. Is it the drinking, smoking, partying, gossiping, day dreaming, analyzing, yearning, blaming, procrastinating? What is holding you back? Being on a spiritual path is calling out the road blocks that we’ve accepted in our life. What is slowing you down? If you need to close yourself down for a bit to repair and recharge, do it.
Sometimes all we have to do is breathe. Take a breath. Life is a lot and practicing mindfulness, meditation, yoga, inner awareness creates space so we can breathe. I always say that the practices don’t take away the problems but the practice softens the experience and teaches us how to release the grip.
Sometimes we have to remember what sparked our flame when we were a little kid. I remember 6 year old Kate. I remember the laughter in my heart. I remember what made me happy. I remember myself. Sometimes we just have to go back to that place and give ourselves a hug. We are growing up but that child energy is always a guiding light.
Sometimes we have to believe and trust. Know this. You aren't doing this alone. You have unlimited support and love. I promise, we all do.